I've started working out again, following a scaled version of the Crossfit workout of the day. Yesterday was Cindy, one of their benchmark workouts. In 20 minutes I completed 7 rounds:
5 pulldowns (120lbs)
10 pushups
15 squats
I walked to Medina's Gym and back home afterward, about 1.5 miles each way.
Today I dropped by the gym on my way to work. The WOD was back squats, 7 x 1 rep. After several warmup sets I made 315, 325, 335, 345, 355, 365, and 375.
Fear is a funny thing. I wasn't afraid when I started, and I blew out my arm doing deadlifts, not squats. But as I approached and then passed 325 (the weight that ruptured my biceps) I could feel my guts tighten. I pushed through but it was odd to feel that, understand it, and recognize that it was totally irrational.
I need to work on squat form, though. Maybe some research is in order.